I wish

I wish I was in the South of France

Or an island in the sun 

I wish I was on a farm with pigs

Or a mountain-top resort

I wish I was in a hideaway 

Where only you know where I stay

Where life can’t reach me

And nobody needs me

Where the dolphins and I can play

Some days I am there,

Physically speaking

But my mind drifts to a basement beating 

When words cut deep into my skin

And a body cut deep into my being

I wish the memories couldn’t follow me

Or they had never happened

I wonder if Hercules gets nightmares

Of Hades and Meghan drifting

The Golden Gates seem so far away

And now I wonder if I even want to go

Because wherever I am, there they are.